To the worry we’re feeling…

To my worried friends..

I feel you. I see you. I’m with you. I’m so worried too. This message was on my heart tonight. Last night I was so overwhelmed with worry and fear, I just let the tears flow. I let myself feel.

I’m also practicing really hard to give myself grace right now. It’s a new month! And normally I’m pumped for a new month and have so much energy around goal setting and checking off my to-do list. But I can’t seem to get myself to that peppy energy at the start of this month – at this very moment, when so much seems to be on the line. And I think I have worry to thank for that who’s so present.

So I’m doing something different tonight. I’m honoring both – my worry and the part of me that wants to do something with it.

I show up as my best self even on my harder days when I use my energy to connect with others who may be feeling similarly.

So I’m writing instead of suppressing my feelings. I wrote a quick letter addressed to Worry.

And maybe I’m just writing for myself. But also maybe I’m writing for someone who couldn’t find the words. Even if one person reads this and feels seen.. well, then this would be worth it.

So here it is.

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Dear Worry,

We know you all too well especially this year – a year of so much change and so many unknowns. A year that has felt like a rollercoaster, completely flipping what we have come so accustomed to as our reality. We’re 9 months into a pandemic now with the weight of an election season, social justice uprising, fires/hurricanes, the instability of what the next week, month will bring, and more – and some more than others, have felt your presence grow with fear.

I wanted to find a way to channel you into something more productive rather than just letting you take over. So here’s a thank you for the role you serve.

Worry, thank you for reminding us that:

..we are human.

..we are resilient despite the things we are carrying.

..it’s okay to feel off balance even when we are doing all the right self-care things.

..we can lean on our communities for support and reassurance.

..we can be grateful for what we have and still feel worried for others and the future.

..this worry isn’t new and has been present before. And we have grown to overcome when faced with you (worry).

..that hope isn’t the absence of worry and fear. It’s the brave decision to show up anyways. And we’ve done it over and over and times before. We show up even when we’re scared. We still find joy in the waiting. We still find peace in the unknown.

..that we can still honor worry but also honor seeking out joy and peace like we’ve done before.

..that this is temporary.

Thank you for being here because I know you won’t last forever. But you can coexist with the other parts of me that I want to put more energy into – like gratitude, love, hope, peace, faith. And I’m reminded that we’ve done this dance before time and time again, and there is only growth to be had from this.

Love,

M 💋

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